Pain

I feel like there's a hole in my chest...

I didn't know the amount of physical pain that came with heartache, I always took it as a metaphor, but no...it hurts...

It's been well over a year now, wouldn't you think that after a year someone wouldn't hurt so much?

I've never regretted something in my life so much...If I could rewind time and never tell him how I felt, I'd probably still have butterflies in my stomach rather than a hole that just keeps digging deeper through my chest.

My mind never stops thinking about him, I suppose that's a reason I'm in such pain...

But if it's not meant to be, than it's not meant to be...But...I don't think that there's anything I want more right now than to have him just whisper those wonderful three words in my ear... Maybe just a hug will do, a heart-filled hug, but I just wish I knew why I'm not right...I've been told so many times by guys, that I'm the perfect girl. I like to do guy things, I can be girlie, I love sports, I don't bitch at the people I'm with and I like to avoid fights/arguments with people...
Too often have I been asked out, told I'm gorgeous, sexy, beautiful, hot...and it doesn't satisfy that thirst for his love...