Dreams!!!

Weird, but nice, dream last night...
After I FINALLY fell asleep... I had a dream about Zac...
It was so weird...we were standing around somewhere with a bunch of people and he walked over to me, smiling, and said, "You still like me, right? Maybe you and I should go out and we'll go to the art museum and look at paintings and you can tell me what you might have done differently if you painted them."
He had this overly cocky attitude and wore sunglasses...It was soooo strange...but it made me happy :) but then so sad :( cause I woke up right before I said "yes".........

Things I want to try.

There's this guy that I'm working on going out with...and maybe on our third or forth date...I'll cook him dinner? It seems like a good idea!

So I want to try and make Creme Brulee for a dessert... Nakji Bokum (spicy octopus with veggies.) and some other things...

Random blog about my crazy self and feelings and how happy I am

Okay so I didn't have a ride down to Tahlia's and Mrs. Mino offered me a ride with them. So I went to get in the back of the car and she basically shoved me and was like "SIT UP FRONT WITH ZAC!" sooo...I wound up riding around with him for over an hour by his side. OHHHHH I was so happy.... When we stopped at Rite Aid in Canaan (speaking of Canaan, some kid just bit the dust, literally, he fell off his bike and died behind Stop N' Shop.) anywho, when he backed the car up his arm was right around me and nnnggg *smiles* :)
Haha! And I don't care who reads this :O

Going to NYC!

I totally have enough money to go to NYC now.
$30 for the train ride.
$16 for general admission to the Museum.
$20 (give or take) for lunch/dinner.

I'd figure I'd leave from Wassaic at 8:30 and arrive around 10:30...Is Friday a bad day to go? I suppose it would be...But it's also in the summer and any day would be bad... ne? X____x
June 11th is sounding good...Wish "you know who" could go with me ;) hehe. I'd love that! ohhh my heart is fluttering just thinking about it... ^-^'

Spring is hereeee

I don't feel you in my dreams anymore...

There may be a day... When we lose hold ... of each other's hands. But ... I can't stop believing... I can't stop wanting him... I can't help ... But give you all of my heart...

Messed up dreams and mixed feelings

Kay so, everyone knows I love James. He even knows that. I would do ANYTHING for the boy.
But the past two nights, I've had some effed up dreams...
First night, I was running away from someone chasing my family and me. Was about to get onto the subway and James was there and said "Wanna sit with me?" and I turned and he had this warm caring smile on his face. So we sat together and held hands.
Second night (last night) It started with me, my friends and of course James, hanging out behind the old station in Canaan...Some guy did a drive by on us, I watched my friends die. I got shot. I died. Knew it was a dream so I bit my lip to wake myself up. The pain I was feeling was me laying on myself wrong.
Fell back asleep, same dream, but I didn't get shot. James did, I crawled over to him and kept telling him not to die. Woke up.
Fell BACK asleep, it was me, James, and this small girl about 3-4 years old with beautiful eyes and dark hair and a gorgeous smile. She was so adorable...I turned to James and he had that sweet warming smile on his face again and the little girl called me Momma and him Daddy.

ARRGGG -_-' yea so thats it...